venting letter to a motivational speaker about gambling

I have an addition, it doesn't have to do with drugs or alcohol, it has to do with my life earnings. I love to gamble. The feeling getting all of the pot is almost better then the feeling of getting high. If i don't start soon, it will start to be a real problem and will effect everybody I am around. My parents don't lend me any money anymore and I lost their trust with money. My boyfriend just left me of five years because I kept on taking his money and said I was going on "shopping sprees," something he would buy, but clearly not the case. When i walk into a casino, a huge relieve of relief is lifted off of my shoulders. This addiction is affecting my job and the company. During work I get really antsy and panic at times. I need to be spending money. Some days are worse then others. At times I can walk in and just stay for a couple of rounds. But some days it gets really bad. I stay for hours until I can win. The feeling is just indescribable. This is honestly becoming such a huge problem. With the economy going down the drain, my money is going with it. If i don't start to buckle down with work and gets some help, I am going to be on the street. It is scary to think about, but I know it will happen if I don't get the help i need. My future can be bright, but gambling has to be out of the picture. I really need all the help I need, please give me some advice.